Poetry

Messy Life

 When things got tough and my dreams were taken away, I ran away from You.

When I felt Your hand convicting my heart, I threw my anger at You.

When my world gets mixed up and my vision disappears,

I fumble in the darkness scared to face You to ask for forgiveness again.

Especially when I can’t seem to get rid of my sin.

But You keep calling me. You keep calling me home.

I don’t even know where to start so You help me to pour out my heart.

By this time, there are so many dark corners I’ve hidden.

The messes were piled up too high.

Moment by moment You chipped them away

And overflowed Your grace on me.

It’s alright to feel the heaviness of wanting to live right for You.

In my desperation, I saw how many things are impossible for me to do.

But there You were again, offering Your help to me.

Your power to take away my sin.

Your love to see me through.

Your friendship because You’re the best friend I have.

Your Spirit to make me more like You.

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He Knows & Provides

You know who’s hurting

You know each one’s needs

You know who’s heart is hardened

You know who needs some peace

Matthew 5:45-46

“…He causes his sun to rise on the evil and the good, and sends rain on the righteous and the unrighteous. If you only love those who love you, what reward will you get? …”

Poetry

Seeking Peace

Romans 12:18

“If it is possible, as far as it depends on you, live at peace with everyone.”  

We are only responsible for half of this equation but we are responsible for 100% of our half.

So seek peace

Seek it with all you have

Chase it through every door

Love boldly

Forgive freely

And then keep forgiving more

John 13:35
By this everyone will know that you are my disciples, if you love one another.”

1 Corinthians 13:4-7

Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.

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He Goes Before Us

He greets me with no judgement

But a nudge and a call to what’s right

He watches and waits patiently

As I work through the trials in my life
Deuteronomy 31:8
The Lord himself goes before you and will be with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged.

Poetry

Being Mean

This morning on the way to school, my 4 year old said “sometimes Caleb (his 7 yr old brother) is mean to me. So sometimes will you be mean to him too?”  I laughed a little on the inside thinking “of course I won’t be mean to your brother because he was mean to you. He’s my son too.”  

Then I wondered if that’s how it sounds to God when we wish He would “repay” the wrongs done to us. He hears us, gently smiles, understands why we feel that way but then reminds us that the person who hurt us is His child too.  And instead of “being mean to them”, He disciplines out of love and infinite wisdom, knowing exactly what each of us needs.  He provides mercy upon mercy just as He has done for me…. and for that, I am extremely grateful.

In the broken, In the silence

I sit and wait

Your hand is at work
I watch and pray
I give You the pieces
I trust what You say