I can’t untangle the mess
I created with my bare hands
I come before You shattered
Hoping You will understand
I’m sorry I’ve taken grace
And used it as my shield
To do whatever I want
And consider sin no big deal
I’d like to turn away
From all my selfish ways
I’d like to start anew
And discover new life in You
If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just to forgive us our sins and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness. 1 John 1:9
Certain things I’ll never understand
And some of them cause me pain
But when I place them in Your hand
They never quite feel the same
The sting is dulled, hope gets brighter
Faith feels renewed and restored.
So I’ll keep placing life in Your hands
And keep my torn heart at Your door
Hebrews 4:16
Let us then approach God’s throne of grace with confidence, so that we may receive mercy and find grace to help us in our time of need.
I woke up in love with You
I could see Your face
I could see Your hand guiding me
Through even this dark place
Your children are never forgotten
Never out of Your sight
Your plans are still in motion
To turn all this wrong into right
“And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.”
Romans 8:28 NIV
Once upon a time I loved you
Then it all came undone
Before I’d look for you in the morning
Now from you to the nights I’d run
Talks I loved now drowned in silence
Your arms nowhere to be found
What ever happened and where did it go?
To this paper are we really bound?
The words start to trickle
A little at a time
The truth now painting a picture
Of what happened in this heart of mine
Why now? Why not then?
Are the angry words we can cry
But now is better than never
And we’ve got to give this a try
A try for us
A try for them
Walking in faith
Trusting in Him
Cleanse my heart
Purify my mind
To be untainted by the sins
I leave behind
The deception is strong
But Your revelation’s in sight
My sin once heavy
Now by Your power made light
John 16:33
“I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world.”
My weights are heavy
And my words are insufficient
To bring about any change
So in Your arms I lay
Unworthy of this love
You’ve so freely given
I shackle myself to shame
You still hold me and promise
To give me a new name
From trapped to freed
Ashamed to forgiven
Weighted down and burdened
To a child of God
My thoughts alone can’t bring this change
So under Your wings I lay
Jesus is with me
because I have the greatest need
He didn’t come for the Saints
For those strong in good deeds
He came for sinners
He came for me
Mark 2:17
On hearing this, Jesus said to them, “It is not the healthy who need a doctor, but the sick. I have not come to call the righteous, but sinners.”
Shake off the dust
Get rid of the junk
Junk that’s been piling on for years
It’s weighed you down
Brought you down roads
That never were planned for you here
Your exit is now
Don’t miss the turn
This new road will be free and light
I’ve heard your prayers
It’s never too late
To turn all this wrong into right
Isaiah 43:18-19
Remember ye not the former things, neither consider the things of old. Behold, I will do a new thing; now it shall spring forth; shall ye not know it? I will even make a way in the wilderness, and rivers in the desert.
One thought and nothing more
Maybe fate guiding, intended for me
Just a thought lingering
Tempting me to make it be
So I examine it, explore it
Start wanting it to become true
It intertwines my being
Influences what I think and do
This thought, this seed
Fighting day and night to win
This thought that feels like destiny
Is really just my sin
1 Corinthians 10:13
No temptation has overtaken you except what is common to mankind. And God is faithful; he will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted, he will also provide a way out so that you can endure it.
Hebrews 12:1
Therefore, since we are surrounded by such a great cloud of witnesses, let us throw off everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles. And let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us,
When things got tough and my dreams were taken away, I ran away from You.
When I felt Your hand convicting my heart, I threw my anger at You.
When my world gets mixed up and my vision disappears,
I fumble in the darkness scared to face You to ask for forgiveness again.
Especially when I can’t seem to get rid of my sin.
But You keep calling me. You keep calling me home.
I don’t even know where to start so You help me to pour out my heart.
By this time, there are so many dark corners I’ve hidden.
The messes were piled up too high.
Moment by moment You chipped them away
And overflowed Your grace on me.
It’s alright to feel the heaviness of wanting to live right for You.
In my desperation, I saw how many things are impossible for me to do.
But there You were again, offering Your help to me.
Your power to take away my sin.
Your love to see me through.
Your friendship because You’re the best friend I have.
Your Spirit to make me more like You.
Run run run away
from all you know is not right
Don’t look back, Don’t hesitate
at your intuition to take flight
The wrong way comes easily
Sometimes it will fall at your feet
Don’t misinterpret it as the way to go
It will surely lead to your defeat
Stay on the path I’ve paved for you
I’ve planned for all your provisions here
Trust me and follow my guidance
Keep your heart covered in prayer.
Proverbs 4:27
Don’t get sidetracked; keep your feet from following evil.
Isaiah 30:21
Whether you turn to the right or to the left, your ears will hear a voice behind you, saying, “This is the way; walk in it.”
Ouch! Like I said before, I’m going through some of my older writings and this one struck me as so heavy. It, to me, paints a picture of a heavy laden, burdened heart, seeking answers and relief during a season of struggle
Passing by in songs of silence
I watch You work behind the scenes
Questions and doubts about this tapestry painted
Looking to see beyond the fog
Answers lingering here and there
Reality mixed with fiction, what is true?
Longing for the days my memory clings to
When I knew You, the You I could fathom
But, now sin enters the picture and doesn’t leave
It’s always hanging around
Spurring burdens on my heart
How does this fit into the picture?
I am waiting, learning and asking for You
I feel that my heart has some heavy needs
I’ll write down what I feel I’ve learned
And ask You again to take the lead.
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He drew his knife
And began his incision
Tearing me apart at the seams
He started by taking
Everything out of
This sin ridden body, diseased
And as He cut
All I felt was the pain
Why would You do this to me?
But when He was done
I saw His skilled hand
Was saving me with this surgery
You do offer strength
And Your call is strong
You’ve asked me to choose
Right over wrong
But what if I don’t
What if I go the wrong way
Would you love me the same
Would I stay in Your grace
Could I love You from there
Would my vision be strained
Would You still hear my prayers
Or would everything change?
2 Chronicles 7:14-15
If my people who are called by my name humble themselves, and pray and seek my face and turn from their wicked ways, then I will hear from heaven and will forgive their sin and heal their land. Now my eyes will be open and my ears attentive to the prayer that is made in this place.
Corinthians 3:16
But whenever someone turns to the Lord, the veil is taken away.
Embracing and entertaining sin dulls my desire for You
The allure is a lie and makes me think it can satisfy me too
But You’ve shown me that’s not true
My heart will only be comforted and safe when given to You.
