Certain things I’ll never understand
And some of them cause me pain
But when I place them in Your hand
They never quite feel the same
The sting is dulled, hope gets brighter
Faith feels renewed and restored.
So I’ll keep placing life in Your hands
And keep my torn heart at Your door
Let us then approach God’s throne of grace with confidence, so that we may receive mercy and find grace to help us in our time of need.
I’ve laid myself down
Raw and exposed
No safety net laid out
Fully vulnerable I suppose
Trusting You to do as You say
Believing in Your love
And even more so in Your grace
As You walk me safely through this place
Beneath my circumstances
Beyond my dreams
There’s a place in my heart
Only You can reach
On my thoughts and emotions
I will not rely
But Your Word and Your promises
Shall be my guide
Day by day
And breath by breath
I will learn
To find Your rest
All of the noise in my head doesn’t need to come together in some grand symphony
Not every loose end needs tying
Not every uncertainty given finality
This is life – it’s tough. Some days are amazing, others are rough.
Working through things won’t always bring answers but it does bring wisdom.
And maybe today that truth is enough to give thanks for.
When my feelings are blinding me
And I can’t see the truth
I’ll choose to trust in You
The heart is deceitful above all things and beyond cure. Who can understand it?
When I’m weary, I’ll rest my head.
Ungrateful – I’ll look at my blessings instead.
Uncertain of myself – I’ll remember how far I’ve come.
Uncertain of my future, I’ll trust what is yet to come.
I don’t like endings
Or seeing people go
I must keep in mind that endings
Bring with them new beginnings
And goodbyes bring new hellos
This morning on the way to school, my 4 year old said “sometimes Caleb (his 7 yr old brother) is mean to me. So sometimes will you be mean to him too?” I laughed a little on the inside thinking “of course I won’t be mean to your brother because he was mean to you. He’s my son too.”
Then I wondered if that’s how it sounds to God when we wish He would “repay” the wrongs done to us. He hears us, gently smiles, understands why we feel that way but then reminds us that the person who hurt us is His child too. And instead of “being mean to them”, He disciplines out of love and infinite wisdom, knowing exactly what each of us needs. He provides mercy upon mercy just as He has done for me…. and for that, I am extremely grateful.
In the broken, In the silence
I sit and wait
Your hand is at work
I watch and pray
I give You the pieces
I trust what You say
I asked for years how to find itI searched, pleaded, implored
Imposters came and went until
One day it arrived at my door
It came in unannounced
Hidden by the storm outside
It learned it’s way around
Waiting for me to recognize
So when the storm ended
I looked to see where it went
And standing right beside me
There it was, true contentment.
…for I have learned to be content whatever the circumstances. I know what it is to be in need, and I know what it is to have plenty. I have learned the secret of being content in any and every situation, whether well fed or hungry, whether living in plenty or in want. I can do all this through him who gives me strength.
If You don’t allow it
It’s probably not meant for me
If You don’t bless it
It was never meant to be
If You keep saying no
I won’t force my hand
I’ll trust things will work out
When they are a part of Your plan
No more looking behind
No more wasting my time
Ask You for my bread each day
Trust that You will lead my way
Smile at You as You return my gaze
Rest in You and be amazed
I am not alone
I am not in need
I am with my Savior
He is enough indeed